Saturday, August 02, 2025

The book: It is finished.

Well, it's done.

As of twenty-five minutes ago, I have completed putting the entire manuscript through Grammarly, checking for grammar and syntax.  That's the better part of three weeks that it took to accomplish that.

There is going to be some going through it with a fine tooth comb, no doubt making a few minor changes here and there.  But otherwise, the text of my book is complete.  It has underwent multiple revisions and checks.  It's pretty much as good as it's going to be.

From completing the first draft last November on through its final form today, it's been eight and a half months of work.  The grammar checking has been done well ahead of schedule.

I've been focused, very nearly wholly dedicated on completing my book, since January of 2024.  And here it is, early August 2025.  I like to think that I'm coming out of the process none the worse for wear.

All that needs doing now is formatting for publishing.  And that won't take long.

I'm going to allow myself to feel good tonight.



Twenty-four hours later...

...since the previous post.

I have just finished writing an epilogue for my book.  It wasn't planned.  It just kinda hit me between the eyes a few hours ago and I needed to commit it to Microsoft Word.

The book has a much more beautiful ending now.

Final word of it: "grail".

Friday, August 01, 2025

Thoughts at a quarter til 3 a.m.

Cannot sleep.  Mind won't stop dwelling.

Like, how I want to believe in places beyond madness.  Beyond cruelty. 

I want to believe that there is a realm where there is no more farewell forever.  Some land of eternal innocence, where even the most damaged and weary can be like children again, to gambol and frolic together in boundless grace.  

I want to believe that for all of one's sins, there can still be redemption.

I want to believe that forgiveness is real.

And I want to believe that it is not foolishness to desire such things.